24

24 is an interesting number; actually it's always been one of my favourites. It's digits add up to the first perfect number and is a multiple of said number. It is the factorial of 4. The tesseract is a really cool 4 dimensional analog of the cube consisting of 24 2-D faces all of which are squares. There are 24 hours in a day on earth. A lot can happen in a single day. One of the best ones is simply that there are 24 total major and minor keys in Western tonal music. Almost all of the music I have ever known and loved has been written and played and sung in one of those keys.

Birthdays are a time for introspection it seems.

I want to say so many things about each year of my early twenties. It's been a ride so far. I don't particularly feel different. But I have to say I all of the sudden feel old. I get to say I am in my "mid" twenties now. My 18 year-old self imagined that I'd be in school working on my masters by now. Unfortunately, and some might say fortunately, that is not the case. There is a lot to my life that I didn't expect to have experienced. I am just a little bit wiser. Or rather, I understand better that my perception of the world was small and have since broadened my view of it. My goal is to continue to do so. The weeks prior to my birthday had been a bit crazy. I had a really good visit from some family, but I had been struggling with what I like to call growing pains. I am realizing I am different and the people I have chosen to befriend are different and my environment is different. I hadn't adjusted because I was changing internally along with my external changes. It felt a bit like I was losing myself in there somewhere. I was spinning.

I have recently come home from a much needed vacation. It was a lot to take in and it felt like we were always on the move, but it was a hell of a lot of fun. Now, sitting in my comfy chair at home, I am so glad to have taken the time away. It sort of resets our brains. My thoughts feel a bit clearer, hence the ability to finish this post finally (ha). I feel a bit renewed in a sense. That I should take on being 24 with a sense of youthfulness and excitement instead of disappointed nostalgia. That's just sad. I'm too young and life's too short for that. Going back to work is gonna be a bit of a struggle though to be totally honest. That's okay. It's summer. And summer was always my time. I have been thinking the last couple of weeks about what it means to be my age. I have come to the conclusion that it is completely up to me. It simply doesn't matter what the world thinks I should be doing. I just need to make up my mind to do something and do it. I was a bit depressed at the fact that I am 24 and haven't actually accomplished many of the things I had originally set out to do. But that's the way of life. We change, as do our priorities. It simply means that I do not need to wait on my dreams because I missed a few of the pit stops I had intended to take along the way.

And in that spirit, my partner and I have started making some very big decisions. I was honestly rather scared at the prospect, but the wild, free-spirited part of me just said, "Why the hell not?" So I have resolved to do some things in the way of bettering myself (mostly because I had gotten so far away from treating myself right) and moving towards going after the things in life I kept waiting on.

I'll be posting about the recent travels and big decisions (probably separately) soon.